I’ve never known the answer to the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
Those were always my top six answers, depending on the day.
I always thought that I’d know the answer to this question by the time that I graduated college, but as it turns out, God has other plans for me.
I still don’t know.
My 24th year is most definitely the year of clarity. I’m figuring out what I’m good at, what I like to do, and what environment suits me best. I’m figuring out who I should spend my time with, who I can trust, and who I can relate to best.
But I don’t have everything figured out — not at all — and I’m finally okay with it. I think a lot of people in this stage of life get told, “figure it out.” The sooner, the better. We may hear this from career counselors, academic advisors, friends, or even family members. But it’s really not that easy.
And besides, what’s the rush?
When I think of this topic, I think of the movie, ‘A Lot Like Love.’ In the movie, Oliver (Ashton Kutcher) tells his brother that he doesn’t want to settle down until he has “all of his ducks in a row,” and his brother reminds him that this is his life. You can’t keep waiting for things to happen. Nothing will ever be perfect. You have to live in the now.
I’ve had a handful of jobs since college graduation. I’m no where near paying off my student loans. I can’t always make up my mind.
But, please — don’t pity me.
I’m not being irresponsible; I’m not wasting my time. I have a job. I pay my bills. I’m figuring it out, one day at a time.
I’ll get all of my ducks in a row someday. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not three months from now, but someday, I will.
Until then, I will be living my life. One imperfect, uncertain, crazy day at a time.
And it’s okay.